a little more

A little more about me latlely:
Ive been having these nightmares and though im not going to dwell into the exact dreams and their content i will explaine my interpretation of them:
I think they are my insecurities that are left wanting reassuring and found wanting in fear of not liking the end result of my questioning so at the moment im hoping it will pass but at the same time im still left up at night and counting on alcohol to dull the fear:
but in saying that i dnt rely on substance nor do i expect anything but  temporary releif:
I have the common fear of loss and humiliation and a common symptom of needing constant reassurance and self reassurance dosnt seem to dull the needing or convince myself of strength or indefinite ease so i am left a stranger within myself.

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